existence

yeah ... a scary thought indeed.
Existence | Ex*ist"ence |
n. Cf. F. existence.

1. The state of existing or being; actual possession of
being; continuance in being; as, the existence of body and
of soul in union; the separate existence of the soul;
immortal existence.
1913 Webster

generally, as a rule, i don't post any wisdomous (Joey ;-) ) stuff but i thought i'll
rant for a bit.
This question baffled almost all of us at some point in time or the other. I do not
profess that i have gauged the concept thoroughly enough to write about it .. but I
wonder ... is it even possible to know for sure ?
There are so many things involved that i'm at loss to know where to start ..
anyways ... when some one says I exist what does that mean ?
The thing that immediately comes to my mind is that - The possesion of the knowledge
that we see, hear, taste, smell and feel. This is true in the sense that, this is what we perceive.
But I donno if i can call it existence. I'll tell you why. Often do we come across
statements in mathematics such as .... there exists a number such that blah blah is not
doodle-do and so there can't exist a limit on the blah foo blah ... and so on and so
forth. Ahha !! a number exists .. !! where ?? Can a number feel, hear, taste, smell and
see ??? Imagine !!
Fine. People may say .. oh please !! there is a thing called logical existence and physical
existence. Well, lets draw some lines here. To us -
The concept of "physical" existence is more appealing as meaning for the word existence.
What are all these hearing, seeing and all this stuff anyway ? (people who saw the movie
Matrix will not entertain such doubts any more ... ) Myriad electro magnetic impulses that
go to and forth the machine that brain is. Now, my friend, what is '2' ? or '3.414' for that
matter ? Another such impulse ? Then why characterize it differently ? I donno.
I just want to "be" content sometimes with the thought all that out there "is" just huge
transfer of energies (electro-magnetic crap or otherwise) into various other forms.
I also "feel" most of the times that I'm better off not "thinking" and just enjoying the life
as it comes ..
But then, I have this unsatiable ego to know that I do what I please ... but with this existence
funda kicking in, I don't see it logically happening ... myriad levels of transfer of energies ...
huhh !!
i'll stop. [at last ..]